ive got headache again.arrr.crap.whats wrong with me.tests next week.assignments yet to pass up.aarrgh.feel damn lazy now.

just finished watching transformers.its nice those who are currently or plan to pursue mechatronics should watch.watch the robots.watched 1st part of ratatouille.it nice too.outdated you will think of me.yes i admit so okay.i was rather busy that time so i missed both of it when it was screening.

sometimes i really salute friends around me.one minute you see them breaking up.another you see them holding hands with a new girl.its funny how they can say i love you forever and stuff like that and yet they can forget just forget about it so easily.breaking up is prolly just like changing their clothes.just take it off and wear a new one.

am i a prodigy or am i just an idiot?

math is hard...arrgghh.i got a 6/10 for my english presentation but i cant complain coz i did not prepared well for it.so i deserve it. :(

was having a sexy time controlling the robotic arms.but its freaking hard.weve go 2 hours left to master it and we have to make it write something out.i will upload the clip when its done.

jordin sparks is nice.her album.niceee...

i dread headaches.crap.aarrgghhh.

mid term tests are coming soon and im still slacking.crap.2 more weeks.aarggghh.digital and microprocessors was crap.its getting more and more complicated.flip-flops was easy.but the microprocessors part was hell.trying so hard to understand.even paying full attention in lecture dint do much help.is there anyone who would like to help me with it?i will be grateful.

have been sleeping in classes lately.especially lectures.i dont know why am i so tired.arrrr.everythings so upside down now.crap.

went out with jessey,her friends and mine.lucky we went to mid valley and the gardens.coz if we were in klcc,we might be in the middle of the hindraf demonstration.which is quite scary.alot were injured.an inspector had 2 gashes on his head and needed 12 stitches.they used tear gases and water cannons.7 police cars were damaged.this is madness.the demonstraters said that they will demonstrate again.wth.

just got back from town.went out with dad just now and he will be leaving for macau tomorrow.just now i told him that i wanted to get a new mouse as mines going to die soon and a cooler pad.he said ok and he asks me to buy a better one so that it lasts longer.thank you.hes gonna pay for my speakers too.but i think i will only ask him to pay part of it la.i will pay the rest.im planning to get an edifier or maybe harman/kardon sound sticks.i like the sound sticks.damn nice.but its 5++ omg.gotta start saving now.

planning to ask my dad to apply a standard chartered gold card for me because now they have a limited edition one.with batman on it.shit i want it.

P.S. my dearest piglet.you cant compare me with your boy coz im way way way better than he is.and im more hugable than he is.this is a fact.

charlene,get well soon.cheer up =) take care.god bless you.

just finished my proposal at luns house.a short presentations tomorrow.how to introduce robots?OMG.its so hard.

went to jw mariott to find my dad just now.will meet with him again tomorrow.he brought my clothes which i accidentally left it at my aunts house in sg.how careless of me.

cant wait for the year end sale.saving money to shop. :) you better start doing so too.

steve mclaren got sacked.yeah.serve him right for not letting david beckham play.kicked him out of the 1st team then later begged him to come back.idiot.why not let him play the whole match?let him come u for only 22 mins?he made a perfect corner for crouch.but they might even won the match if he was in the 1st team.this is a good lesson for england too.for letting an idiot taking charge.Sven-Göran Eriksson was better.

:(
group presentation today dint go well either.dint know who to blame.prolly its mine coz i dint really help them out.sigh.

everyone will be going back to kuching soon and ive still got half sem.

1 week since i had dunkin donuts

broke

:)
starting a new electronics lab session next week.cant wait.

dad is coming tomorrow.and im meeting him up on sat morning as he has a LG dinner at jw mariott.

jasmine 'fish' leong will be in kl for her promo tour on jan 5 and will be having a concert at bukit jalil next year.the date is yet to be confirmed.

the digital electronics & microprocessors lecturer plans to change the assignment into an individual one so it means that i wont have to see her face.OMG.yes.

was quite pissed yesterday.dont wanna think about it.the stupid girl and the bloody seniors.prolly wasnt my day.hope todays presentation goes on smoothly.

i wana go to my chemical romances concert and fish leongs concert in singapore or at least one of of them.but im so broke.aahhhhhh.i need jackpot now =(

anyway.dads coming over in a day or two.he will be staying overnight in kl as he is on a transit to macau.travelling again.i wanna go =(

piglets coming too.nice.cant wait to see her.prolly prettier than before.will i recog her when i see her?or i might just pass by her without noticing.ahah.pitlet.dont forget our deal.haha.i cant find a cardboard with that size.OMG.

stupid debbies coming over too.5th dec.ahah.

msged michelle yesterday and she said she might be studyin in taylor next year.joo might be coming too.tourism.omg.with them around.i think i wont be that bored anymore.but still if they study there,its far.i have to sit an hours train ride to see them.crap.

mid term test is coming and i dread math and digital electronics & microprocessors.but i heart basic eletronics and engineering science.

this weeks rather hectic and so will the following weeks.have to study for test.assignments yet to be done.somemore have to help mr julian.prodex is coming soon.and that will increase the burden too. -_- stress kills.

math today was still okay.managed to get everything into my mind.and it is really somethig to be proud of.coz i seldom manage to get everything into my peanut sized brains.especially math.

miss tan said that only 2 person got A for the individual presentation and god i know that i didnt really prepared well enough so i guess the letter just slipped from my grasp.sigh.theres a group presentation this thur and i shall prepare well.

gotta wake up really early tomorrow because i will have to be at the train station at 6.45.adam will be waiting for me at maluri lrt station.and it takes more than 1 hour to reach there.have to go to secondary schools to hand out letters to request the permission to give talks.hope everything goes smoothly.

im starting to miss my family.sigh.but its okay.coz dad will be in town this weekend as he is going to macau for a vacation.

when you walk away,i count the steps that you take.do you see how much i need you right now.

one of my greatest dread is working along with people who are proud and boastful.can only talk but not do.i dont know how the heck you managed to get into my group.i duno what lame excuse did you give to the lecturer so that you can be in my group.who do you think you are?you want to be in my group without even telling me?ive enough with you.last semester,we were in the same freaking group for 5 freaking assignments and you dint even do anything.you just talk talk talk and after that you go back to your hometown.leaving us to do the rest.and when you came back,you complained to the lecturer that we werent cooperative.talk about that.im going to talk to the lecturer about this matter later.stupid bitch.thats the reason why I didnt include you in the list for the aircraft exhibition help out list,even though you studied aviation before.coz all you do is talk.and never do.even if you do.you do crap.

you keep judging other peoples english.how about yours?i think your standard is not even up to my 13 years old singaporean couz.yours suck big time.I PLAN TO IMMIGRATE MY FAMILY TO AUSTRALIA? My god.you cant even differentiate between headache and migraine.dilemma and problem.

and please,youre not even close to rich.wearing a levis swaroski isnt rich.wearing a rm350 esprit dress isnt either.if youre really rich,get a real louis vuitton bag and wear a rolex.wear armani jeans instead of levis.and I will salute you.is having a platinum card really that proud?do you really have to show of?take a picture of the card and upload it on your friendster?OMG.somemore the card isnt free.you have to pay?my dear,its only from public bank.theres nothing to be proud of.you dont have to go round telling people that your bf has a platinum.well,i have one too.and its free.if your card is issued by international banks like citibank,hsbc or standard chartered then I have nothing to say.yours is only local.get a titanium then.if youre really that rich.coz you cant apply for titanium.they give it to you.drive a harley davidson v-rod instead of a hyundai elantra which belongs to you bf.coz the v-rod is way more expensive than your car.

Im typing this post in my kl bound train.im on my way back to kl.its been a hectic weekend for me.i was in sg to accompany my family as they are there for holi.i hardly shopped as I had to bring my grandparents around and not only that.i had to pushed granny as her legs are not that strong.my aunt suggested wheelchair for her but no one wants to push her.managed to meet stupid debbie for lunch and took pics of the christmas tree in ngee ann city with her.the pics are already on her blog so I wont have to upload it.but its not advisable to look at the pics as my eyes seems to be so small especially standing beside someone with big round weird eyes.haha.
dint manage to meet with charlene as I only smsed her on sun night and because of that I had not much time left in sg so we couldnt meet up.sorry yea.will meet you next time aite.

bought an esprit pants for myself and my lil bro.bought a springfield shirt for him too coz he likes white clothes and has been asking my mum to buy her one.i will get 1 more for him when I go down to pavilion.if theres a sale coz im so broke.and im yet to pay to rental and books and stuff.i am yet to get myself a nice shirt.

had a chat with sam and harry via msn.and after some of harrys advice,ive decided to hold on and continue caring for you.keeping the candle alight even though the wind is strong.im trying hard to stay strong too.hope you will try your best and stay strong too. =)
take care and god bless you.i shall go and sleep now. au revoir

every setback is a setup for a comeback.everytime you make a decision,you are making a change in your life.

chi xim jiok dui

sio yong ji bue LATTE guan zhui lu

ho ho lu ai wa zhe tam bok

an liam eh bi so lu be dong ji kuang kam gok

zha wu lang boi lu yong yan be hiao

kua tiok lu ga ee di wa bin jeng

zhen meng wa eh ai si kong kam

lu be tong wa eh hi chok qiu kui

si lu yong yan be bak gue eh ti eh

wui lu hu chut hi kuang xiong xim lu yong yan be liao gai

wa you ho ko ming chiang ka ki ai lu eh ji que

lu you hen hen bek teh wa eh hwong bei

kin kin kam meng lai am xng wa eh bak sai

meng zai ai lu li kui ee eh seh kai bo ko leng

wo gok gong gong dang gao qi gi chut hien eh hi ji jit

gao ga hi ji jit lu eh huat hien

jin jin ail u eh lang ka ki kua kin xiong bei

eh bak wa sio gong wa ga ki eh hou hui

beh sio ai ga gue tao chi xim jiok dui

wui lu ga lao eh tao ji leh bak sai

wui lu zho zhen he gai bi

eh wua be deng lu dui wa eh zhiong jue

wui lu hu chut hi kuang xiong xim lu yong yan be liao gai

wa you ho ko ming chiang ka ki ai lu eh ji que

lu you hen hen bek teh wa eh hwong bei

kin kin kam meng lai am xng wa eh bak sai

meng zai ai lu li kui ee eh seh kai bo ko leng

wo gok gong gong dang gao qi gi chut hien eh hi ji jit

gao ga hi ji jit lu eh huat hien

jin jin ail u eh lang ka ki kua kin xiong bei

this song is in chinese.痴心绝对.but I changed it into hokkien lyrics.i wonder if you understand what im writing.coz part of it is my current feeling towards you.the rest of it cant be explained in words.it has to be done.

Harry came up with this idea.

went to yan palace for dim sum just now.went to outram park for a walk then to vivo city.hardly walked.ended up in Häagen-Dazs.i need more.donuts too.nothing much today.i should be relaxing myself but somehow i just feel like theres something missing in my life.and i dont know whats it.aarrghh.got to rush my assignments.dont want to end up like last sem,rushing for this and that at the very last minute.

sorry charlene coz i wont be able to make it for breakfast tomorrow morning.gotta accompany my grandparents.going back to kl tomorrow night.feeling both sad and happy at the same time.sigh.duno how to explain either.

went to xin wang at cineleisure with jieying.the food was nice.pass her the donuts and the kite runner for her to read.enjoyed her company too.and we took pictures with the enormous christmas tree inside takashimaya.went book hunting i kinokuniya but couldnt find any thats nice.prolly its because i have a bad taste for books.

went back earlier as i had to get back to my grandparents.went to rama thai for dinner.shark fins.but its not as nice as the ones in thai village.grandpa loves shark fins.so i had to accompany him.other than the shark fins,the food was nice.

this week is going to be a pretty tough week for me.ive got english group presentation on tue and im going back on tue morning.somemore we never even practiced.have to prepare a proposal for my robotics assignment.do another research for robotics too.have to come up with an idea of how to build a mock cockpit.and have to test the connection of all 5 laptops linked together for prodex.the exibitions in dec and ive got less than a month to finish the cockpit and the connection and get everything moving.mid term test is coming.crap.

feel like going down to east coast park and have a walk alone.need the solitude of the beach badly.sigh.

is putting high hopes of being together with a person stubborn?especially when you know that its not going to happen?if it is then im stubborn am i not?

your happiness is my goal.i will still like you even if you wont like me back,thats alright for me.

trip to singapore b train was killing.there was no scenery.my laptops battery was limited.i couldnt sleep well either.the train was rocking like a boat and my arrival was delayed for more than hour.talk about efficiency.i was pretty hungry too.ate only 3 dunkin donuts as i had no more malaysian ringgit left.aunt brought me to east coast park and tried the satay bee hoon.not bad.and chicken wings.nice la.i think i devoured the food like a wolf.shame.

cant even com out with ideas on how to design a mock cockpit which we promised mr julian to help him.but it turns out to be quite challenging as i dont know how to design one.and yes i am bad in designing.i need inspirations.

grandparents will be arriving tomorrow.so will my mum and my kolo mee too.woho.who wants some?come and get it.

the kite runner by khaled hosseini is damn nice.touching.everyone should read it.you will not regret reading it.you can borrow it from me.but i will be passing to jie ying tomorrow.so wait if you want to borrow.or just buy it.its 35 ringgit only.

will be meeting up with stupid jie ying tomorrow.have to sleep now. au revoir.

for you,a thousand times over.

sometimes setting a goal that is too high for yourself isnt good at all as you will end up licking the wounds.english presentation today suck big time.even though it wasnt that bad butthe outcome wasnt what i had expected.im starting to doubt myself in all sorts of stuff.wondering if i really had the ability to do things the right way.

it is often said that after every storm emerges a rainbow.but this storm is like a neverending one.crap.havent been studying for like a week.even in class,im physically there,but mentally im not.i tend to drift to another world.or just sit there daydreaming.lecturers are worried about me as im always very active and help them alot.im being frank and not flattering myself.

my english is like forever deteriorating.when i read other peoples blog.i feel like my writing is like only pre-school?crap.

i think im sick again.after not being sick for so long.no more windmill donuts from dunkin donuts.prolly its too oily as they deep-fry the whole thing.but its so nice.i will get more when im fine. =P jie ying.dont be jealous.coz theres no dd or j co in sg.so you cant do anything to satisfy your craving.theres like two dd in my area.all i have to do is just take a bus down.

food prolly can repel stress.but its only for a short time and im getting fatter.gonna become pooh bear if i continue like this.OMG.

going to get my tickets to sg tomorrow.im leaving on fri night.mom says im gonna freeze to death.coz the last time my bro went by train.he was cold like hell even though he had his jacket and 3 clothes.i cant imagine what will i become.ive only got a long sleeve chelsea training jersey and that wont do much.maybe i can start a fire in the train to keep me warm.lame.wonder what will my cabinmate look like.haha.hope they have adapters in the train.if not i will die of boredom.

gonna finish reading the kite runner.its so damn nice.and its touching.OMG.

theres so many things that i wish i could just forget about it and act as if none of them ever occur in the first place.i doubt that you even know that ure still in my mind.tattooed deep into my skin.and whenever i look upon the scar,i see you face.everytime when it comes so close for me to date a girl,the image of you and the thoughts come rushing up my brain.making me stop the very next step.and this isnt the first time.why is this happening?i tried forgetting you but saying is always easier than done.what do i really have to do to have you or at least forget you and move on?can someone give me a decent answer?i doubt no one can.not even you.if there is really a chance to be will you,i will try my best and salvage the very chance.if theres really one.friends laugh at me,for being so foolish and stubborn.being in an unrequited love.but deep inside theres still lots of stuff that none of them know.prolly not even you.ive tried proving that im still into you but i duno if you got them right.im really tired of this crap.can you at least give me a clear answer?is there any hope or chance left for salvation?tell me there is.i really wish that i still had the courage like i used to.to stand up again.but i dont have and i dont even think i could get it bad so quickly.its buried deep inside the gravel where there is no hope.

maybe its because im too afraid to fail again.maybe its because my heart hardened after all the things the happened in the recent years.fearing that things will only worsen instead of the other way round.and if the worst scenarios happen,we might not even be friends anymore,for the fear for hurting each other.or maybe its best we remain at the current state and move no further along the path.

sometimes,i lie on the bed for hours thinking about my life and whats really behind all these.but most of the times i just end up with the answer sheet empty.i dont really understand what ive done wrong.my girl friends say maybe its because im too good with almost everyone especially girls.and thats why they treat me as a brother.is treating everyone kind a sin too?is it really bad to be too good or too kind to everyone?do i really have to be selfish?

the reason i changed so much when i came to kl for my diploma was you.i changed alot.and i dare swear that my lifestyle here is totally different compared to kuching and i am more hardworking than before.prolly a hundred times more.i used to be a very rebellious kid.but right now,im different.the old me is gone now.this is the new me.all because of you.

if its not for you,i dont think i will be this hardworking.i doubt that i will be here blogging and study till midnight and sometimes till dawn.im really grateful of you being the catalyst.hoping that some of my determination will prove to everyone that they are wrong for saying that this isnt an unrequited one.

went to pavilion again with jessey and her friend and her friends boy.jessey wanted to go there coz she says shes never been to there and ive been there for like the 4th time.nothing much happened but im quite happy today coz i helped a blind out of the toilet in kl sentral. =)



i fell asleep in the train while on the way back and i nearly missed my station.haha.crap.mum called me just now and said that maybe i should go down to sg when dey are going there coz grandpa isnt as strong as before and there wasnt anyone to push him around coz my lil bro will be pushing my grandma.and talk about my cousins who are self-centered so such job wouldnt be done by them.but im broke di.hahah.



someone help me with trigonometry pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

math is killing me.i hate trigonometry.OMG.damn hard.aarrrgghhh.and i skipped french today.i wasnt feeling well.damn.i think im gonna be sick.slept whole afternoon.from 3 until 7. sigh.

watched the magic gourd at luns house.laughed the hell out of me.haha.damn nice and meaningful too.everyone should watch it.

went to gym this morning with pengyang.and he agreed to accompany me to get my hand tattooed with henna.haha.its only 10 bucks.but we will do it prolly after our presentation.coz ms tan will sure skin us alive if we were to present with our hands with henna.hahah.

dad called me just now and he says he will be in town for a day.hes coming on the 24th of nov for a transit to macau on the 25th.and he will back again on the 28th i tink.hahah.look forward to see him.

i read this news from the web saying that airasia will be bigger than singapore airlines and cathay pacific.OMG http://peanuts.aero/low_cost_airline_news/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=1337&Itemid=59 go read it.

i read a quote in star the previous day.GLAMOUR-its about how you year,not what you wear.

quite happy now.went to meet up with nat just now.no change at all. =P had dinner with her parents at esquire kitchen.yummy.and went to pavilion after that.2nd time in 2 days.haha.i think i can walk the place with my eyes blindfolded.haha.food republic just opened today.OMG.gotta try it.the food in sg is nice but i duno whether its the same here.crystal jade restaurant is also in kl now.nice.but im broke.hahah.went to buy donuts from J Co. Donuts.heard of it before???? www.jcodonuts.com damn freaking nice.nats mum gave me 2.thx aunty and uncle. =)

and and english teachers not coming tomorrow.MC.ahha so that means that my presentation is being prosponed.hahahhaha niceee.lalalala

gonna sleep earlier.going gym tomorrow.haha.I NEED DONUTS....

my mind is currently filled with both sad and happy.im sad because my friends in kuching just attended their graduation prom which i couldnt attend even if i could fly back.because its only for those who graduated and sadly i walk out of the school in april.im sad to because ive got a presentation on tuesday and its still in a mess and i wont have time tomorrow because nat will be in town so im going down to meet her.damn.gotta do it.most of all.im damn pissed because a bloody bitch kept pushing me when the train reached the station and the door just open.she kept pushing me as it the doors gonna close at any moment and the trains gonna fall.its as if that if she stays in the train for another 10 secs,she might die.idiot.self centered.lucky during that time i was in good mood or else i will just keep blocking her way and not let her get out until the door closes.

anyway.went out with randy and eng tseng.eng tsengs sis offered to give us a ride to times square.thx.and we walked from 1.30 until 10.30 OMG.9 hours.haha.went to collect my router and went to quite few places.went to topshop and got myself a shirt.just a normal one.bought few lemons from cold storage and we spent another half an hour inside just to get 3 canned drinks.shit.and i saw something interesting.a bottled FRAPPUCINO from starbucks.shit.i will upload the pic tomorrow.i was like wth.haha.i mean its so wierd la. -_- and after that we went into starhill gallery for a walk and none of us bought anything as the things inside are like bloody expensive.DKNY ROLEX LV KENZO DAVIDOFF BOSS BANG & OLUFSEN VERTU and so on.and jackie chan has a coffee shop inside.haha.we went to pavilion later with lun.he met up with us and he brought strawberries.yummy.theres still some shops thats still under construction.we went into mercato.its a supermarket but its damn classy.even cold storage cant compete with it.damn classy.and the prices are the same.

J Co. donuts is in KL.shit woi.and theres like so many ppl queuing up to buy.i wanted to buy but my friends were lazy to wait.at least 30 mins.super long queue.gotta ty all the flavours.hahahha.no more dunkin donuts.J CO.

food republic is coming.their lot is still under construction.nice.i will go to pavilion again.soon.i swear.im into one of the new swatch irony watches.i want them.gotta start saving money.

i want to go to the graduation prom.sigh.im pissed.because of the last minute goal by william gallas.arrghhh.lalalalala.

im still not done with my preparation for my presentation on tuesday.must get it done by tomorrow.but im so lazy to do it.sigh.

nat seems to be having a hard time recently and im sorry that im not by your side comforting you as we are in separate places.but anyways shes coming over on mon.and hopefully i have time to accompany her.haha.really miss her a lot.as friends.haha.

on the other hand,charlene seems to be on cloud nine.dont know when will she be coming down.haha.her mood seems to be improving quickly.good work girl.keep it up.jia you.

addicted to another book written by khaled hosseini-the kite runner.im only lke one third through the book and its very touching indeed.no wonder its a bestseller.haha.and its sad too.

just got one of olivia ongs album.a girl meets bossa nova 2.been finding for a long time.i can assure you its nice.

an unrequited love is always a bitter one.try it if you dont believe so.

we are just two different people living in two different world

with two different life and two different propects.

lun went back to cameron highlands just now and hes gonna buy me strawberries.fresh ones.haha.nice.ive just realised that ive been cabbing alot recently.duno why.hahah even from my place to the train station which is quite near and i used to walk there.but now i prefer to take a cab.shit -_____- havent been revision recently.even if i did,its only abit.ive got an english presentation on tues and i still haven prepare it.i dont even have the script yet.damn.haven iron my clothes too.gotta get everything done by tomorrow night.

had a chat with PRETTY GIRL,debbie ho last night.haha.talk about lots and lots of stuff and she says shes coming over to kl at the beginning of dec.haha.shes coming with yan chang.haha.they are staying at tegans place which is very far from my place.and i just realised that tegans studying in kl too.haha.theres so many people studying in kl and i never even realise so.lame.

i really feel like going down to sg now.ahha dont ask why.i duno too.just feel like going.haha hope my mum will ask me to go down when they are going over there.

nat.cheer up =) being emo isnt good.you arent that week dear.stay strong.dont be so pressimistic and everything will be alright.its normal if friends dint ask you to go out.maybe they really forgot.they might be some other reasons which we might not know.its very normal.dont take minor matters like that as if its very serious.being sad will just make your day dull and meaningless.everything happens for a reason.so why dont you take things the way it is?maybe life will be easier for you =) cheer up.hols are mend for relaxing not for crying.when are you coming to KL??haha

went out with johnson yesterday.its was quite fun.had to go into aquaria with them.and igot a cheaper price coz im a student.haha.i pai only 20 but they paid 28 each.after that we went to taman paramount to meet pui li.a friend of his.his ex-crush too.hahah but she was nice as she offered to send us to sunway phase 2.and we walked around and spent 13 bucks on a plate of stupid rice.with curry.yucks.after that she too decided to send u to petaling street as johnson wanted to go there and get a pair of cheap shoes.but we decided not to let her drive us there coz its really far from subang and theres a very high chance of her getting lost.haha her driving skills -_- so in the end she drove us to the train station and we took a train there.

its good to be seeing old friends and i sure miss him alot.as friends la.harry will be coming soon i hope.his words cant always be trusted.haha

jessey called me up last night and we hate a chat for like over an hour.haha.she said shes afraid of failing her test and so on.jia you girl.dont give up =) you chose this path so its up to you to finish the unpaved road.so start paving the road for you own future.take care.

i wamt the new versace perfume for men.its so nice.but im so broke now.should i do it the evil way?use my card to satisfy myself and get skinned later??hahah or should i save money and get it myself???

lifes more than just doing this or that to show or prove to other people youre good.its about being yourself and enjoying every single bit of it.