i had a bad bad dream. and i cant sleep :(

how come everything i do everything i wanted to do, everyone goes against it. no matter what everyone will be splashing cold water. why? should i really be that presistent? or just listen to them? when you pioneer the road not taken, will it be a more rewarding or that following the footsteps of others would be the best seeked solution. im sick of it.

its hard to be walking down the darkest part of the road alone. not knowing whats behind you and whats in front of you. whats gonna come and whats gonna happen. no one to aide you and no one to advice you.

lifes been rather unkind to me lately and i dont know why.things just dont go the way its expected. people disappointing you. things turned out to be crappy. or maybe i should be thankful that im still alive every second and i shouldnt be whining because i can still enjoy good food.

the more you expect, the higher the chances of getting disappointed. maybe its best to just expect from myself and not from others.

exams exams exams....driving me crazy... i need a life. i need shopping. but im broke. ): uncle ting pay me money quick. please. i regret asking you to buy that jeans already because i could have pampered myself with the money. lol. 2 papers and im done. (:

82 more days to go (:

i miss you. LOL

i cant sleep so i woke up and blogged. (:

back in kl. (: its so sickening because you just cant drive here and there. and its so freakingholybloodygoddamn hot here. no air con ): anyway gotta pass this 2 paper and we shall see where destiny would lead to. lifes kinda boring. (: back to sleep....niteyyy

112 more days to go(:

maybe what everyone said about me is right...i aint that smart. maybe i shouldnt apply to study aerospace...im just someone normal and stupid. a poor actor in the stage of life. FML

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY
TO MYSELF
(:

Boy am i old already....ive just turned into a two zero and im starting to feel old already...well maybe im just being a paranoid. thanks for all the birthday wishes boys and girls (: hugs. take care.

im sorry that i may not be what you expected me to be. maybe other people are way better than me but you cant compare people with people. everyone has his strong and weak. to you i may seem to not put in any effort but believe me ive tried my best and gave everything i have to prove myself. im sorry im just not perfect.

genting trip was awesome. well there are unpleasant stuff too. like i banged into boon songs head and he bled profusely. lol but thank god it was only his scalp and my mouth bled too...thats when shit happens. photos will be uploaded to facebook...

just a blink of an eye and ive been here for 2 long years.god its fast. i be going back to kuching soon...tomorrow and may the saga of kolo mee resume... but i be missing you all faggots here...all the best to you all and maybe someday we might meet up again (:

I LOVE YOU BABE

is that okay??

its been so long.... so busy and so stressed. lol

BRUNEL UNIVERSITY or RMIT ?? which one?? lol

i miss everyone.... ):