trip to singapore b train was killing.there was no scenery.my laptops battery was limited.i couldnt sleep well either.the train was rocking like a boat and my arrival was delayed for more than hour.talk about efficiency.i was pretty hungry too.ate only 3 dunkin donuts as i had no more malaysian ringgit left.aunt brought me to east coast park and tried the satay bee hoon.not bad.and chicken wings.nice la.i think i devoured the food like a wolf.shame.

cant even com out with ideas on how to design a mock cockpit which we promised mr julian to help him.but it turns out to be quite challenging as i dont know how to design one.and yes i am bad in designing.i need inspirations.

grandparents will be arriving tomorrow.so will my mum and my kolo mee too.woho.who wants some?come and get it.

the kite runner by khaled hosseini is damn nice.touching.everyone should read it.you will not regret reading it.you can borrow it from me.but i will be passing to jie ying tomorrow.so wait if you want to borrow.or just buy it.its 35 ringgit only.

will be meeting up with stupid jie ying tomorrow.have to sleep now. au revoir.

for you,a thousand times over.

sometimes setting a goal that is too high for yourself isnt good at all as you will end up licking the wounds.english presentation today suck big time.even though it wasnt that bad butthe outcome wasnt what i had expected.im starting to doubt myself in all sorts of stuff.wondering if i really had the ability to do things the right way.

it is often said that after every storm emerges a rainbow.but this storm is like a neverending one.crap.havent been studying for like a week.even in class,im physically there,but mentally im not.i tend to drift to another world.or just sit there daydreaming.lecturers are worried about me as im always very active and help them alot.im being frank and not flattering myself.

my english is like forever deteriorating.when i read other peoples blog.i feel like my writing is like only pre-school?crap.

i think im sick again.after not being sick for so long.no more windmill donuts from dunkin donuts.prolly its too oily as they deep-fry the whole thing.but its so nice.i will get more when im fine. =P jie ying.dont be jealous.coz theres no dd or j co in sg.so you cant do anything to satisfy your craving.theres like two dd in my area.all i have to do is just take a bus down.

food prolly can repel stress.but its only for a short time and im getting fatter.gonna become pooh bear if i continue like this.OMG.

going to get my tickets to sg tomorrow.im leaving on fri night.mom says im gonna freeze to death.coz the last time my bro went by train.he was cold like hell even though he had his jacket and 3 clothes.i cant imagine what will i become.ive only got a long sleeve chelsea training jersey and that wont do much.maybe i can start a fire in the train to keep me warm.lame.wonder what will my cabinmate look like.haha.hope they have adapters in the train.if not i will die of boredom.

gonna finish reading the kite runner.its so damn nice.and its touching.OMG.

theres so many things that i wish i could just forget about it and act as if none of them ever occur in the first place.i doubt that you even know that ure still in my mind.tattooed deep into my skin.and whenever i look upon the scar,i see you face.everytime when it comes so close for me to date a girl,the image of you and the thoughts come rushing up my brain.making me stop the very next step.and this isnt the first time.why is this happening?i tried forgetting you but saying is always easier than done.what do i really have to do to have you or at least forget you and move on?can someone give me a decent answer?i doubt no one can.not even you.if there is really a chance to be will you,i will try my best and salvage the very chance.if theres really one.friends laugh at me,for being so foolish and stubborn.being in an unrequited love.but deep inside theres still lots of stuff that none of them know.prolly not even you.ive tried proving that im still into you but i duno if you got them right.im really tired of this crap.can you at least give me a clear answer?is there any hope or chance left for salvation?tell me there is.i really wish that i still had the courage like i used to.to stand up again.but i dont have and i dont even think i could get it bad so quickly.its buried deep inside the gravel where there is no hope.

maybe its because im too afraid to fail again.maybe its because my heart hardened after all the things the happened in the recent years.fearing that things will only worsen instead of the other way round.and if the worst scenarios happen,we might not even be friends anymore,for the fear for hurting each other.or maybe its best we remain at the current state and move no further along the path.

sometimes,i lie on the bed for hours thinking about my life and whats really behind all these.but most of the times i just end up with the answer sheet empty.i dont really understand what ive done wrong.my girl friends say maybe its because im too good with almost everyone especially girls.and thats why they treat me as a brother.is treating everyone kind a sin too?is it really bad to be too good or too kind to everyone?do i really have to be selfish?

the reason i changed so much when i came to kl for my diploma was you.i changed alot.and i dare swear that my lifestyle here is totally different compared to kuching and i am more hardworking than before.prolly a hundred times more.i used to be a very rebellious kid.but right now,im different.the old me is gone now.this is the new me.all because of you.

if its not for you,i dont think i will be this hardworking.i doubt that i will be here blogging and study till midnight and sometimes till dawn.im really grateful of you being the catalyst.hoping that some of my determination will prove to everyone that they are wrong for saying that this isnt an unrequited one.

went to pavilion again with jessey and her friend and her friends boy.jessey wanted to go there coz she says shes never been to there and ive been there for like the 4th time.nothing much happened but im quite happy today coz i helped a blind out of the toilet in kl sentral. =)



i fell asleep in the train while on the way back and i nearly missed my station.haha.crap.mum called me just now and said that maybe i should go down to sg when dey are going there coz grandpa isnt as strong as before and there wasnt anyone to push him around coz my lil bro will be pushing my grandma.and talk about my cousins who are self-centered so such job wouldnt be done by them.but im broke di.hahah.



someone help me with trigonometry pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

math is killing me.i hate trigonometry.OMG.damn hard.aarrrgghhh.and i skipped french today.i wasnt feeling well.damn.i think im gonna be sick.slept whole afternoon.from 3 until 7. sigh.

watched the magic gourd at luns house.laughed the hell out of me.haha.damn nice and meaningful too.everyone should watch it.

went to gym this morning with pengyang.and he agreed to accompany me to get my hand tattooed with henna.haha.its only 10 bucks.but we will do it prolly after our presentation.coz ms tan will sure skin us alive if we were to present with our hands with henna.hahah.

dad called me just now and he says he will be in town for a day.hes coming on the 24th of nov for a transit to macau on the 25th.and he will back again on the 28th i tink.hahah.look forward to see him.

i read this news from the web saying that airasia will be bigger than singapore airlines and cathay pacific.OMG http://peanuts.aero/low_cost_airline_news/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=1337&Itemid=59 go read it.

i read a quote in star the previous day.GLAMOUR-its about how you year,not what you wear.

quite happy now.went to meet up with nat just now.no change at all. =P had dinner with her parents at esquire kitchen.yummy.and went to pavilion after that.2nd time in 2 days.haha.i think i can walk the place with my eyes blindfolded.haha.food republic just opened today.OMG.gotta try it.the food in sg is nice but i duno whether its the same here.crystal jade restaurant is also in kl now.nice.but im broke.hahah.went to buy donuts from J Co. Donuts.heard of it before???? www.jcodonuts.com damn freaking nice.nats mum gave me 2.thx aunty and uncle. =)

and and english teachers not coming tomorrow.MC.ahha so that means that my presentation is being prosponed.hahahhaha niceee.lalalala

gonna sleep earlier.going gym tomorrow.haha.I NEED DONUTS....

my mind is currently filled with both sad and happy.im sad because my friends in kuching just attended their graduation prom which i couldnt attend even if i could fly back.because its only for those who graduated and sadly i walk out of the school in april.im sad to because ive got a presentation on tuesday and its still in a mess and i wont have time tomorrow because nat will be in town so im going down to meet her.damn.gotta do it.most of all.im damn pissed because a bloody bitch kept pushing me when the train reached the station and the door just open.she kept pushing me as it the doors gonna close at any moment and the trains gonna fall.its as if that if she stays in the train for another 10 secs,she might die.idiot.self centered.lucky during that time i was in good mood or else i will just keep blocking her way and not let her get out until the door closes.

anyway.went out with randy and eng tseng.eng tsengs sis offered to give us a ride to times square.thx.and we walked from 1.30 until 10.30 OMG.9 hours.haha.went to collect my router and went to quite few places.went to topshop and got myself a shirt.just a normal one.bought few lemons from cold storage and we spent another half an hour inside just to get 3 canned drinks.shit.and i saw something interesting.a bottled FRAPPUCINO from starbucks.shit.i will upload the pic tomorrow.i was like wth.haha.i mean its so wierd la. -_- and after that we went into starhill gallery for a walk and none of us bought anything as the things inside are like bloody expensive.DKNY ROLEX LV KENZO DAVIDOFF BOSS BANG & OLUFSEN VERTU and so on.and jackie chan has a coffee shop inside.haha.we went to pavilion later with lun.he met up with us and he brought strawberries.yummy.theres still some shops thats still under construction.we went into mercato.its a supermarket but its damn classy.even cold storage cant compete with it.damn classy.and the prices are the same.

J Co. donuts is in KL.shit woi.and theres like so many ppl queuing up to buy.i wanted to buy but my friends were lazy to wait.at least 30 mins.super long queue.gotta ty all the flavours.hahahha.no more dunkin donuts.J CO.

food republic is coming.their lot is still under construction.nice.i will go to pavilion again.soon.i swear.im into one of the new swatch irony watches.i want them.gotta start saving money.

i want to go to the graduation prom.sigh.im pissed.because of the last minute goal by william gallas.arrghhh.lalalalala.

im still not done with my preparation for my presentation on tuesday.must get it done by tomorrow.but im so lazy to do it.sigh.

nat seems to be having a hard time recently and im sorry that im not by your side comforting you as we are in separate places.but anyways shes coming over on mon.and hopefully i have time to accompany her.haha.really miss her a lot.as friends.haha.

on the other hand,charlene seems to be on cloud nine.dont know when will she be coming down.haha.her mood seems to be improving quickly.good work girl.keep it up.jia you.

addicted to another book written by khaled hosseini-the kite runner.im only lke one third through the book and its very touching indeed.no wonder its a bestseller.haha.and its sad too.

just got one of olivia ongs album.a girl meets bossa nova 2.been finding for a long time.i can assure you its nice.

an unrequited love is always a bitter one.try it if you dont believe so.

we are just two different people living in two different world

with two different life and two different propects.

lun went back to cameron highlands just now and hes gonna buy me strawberries.fresh ones.haha.nice.ive just realised that ive been cabbing alot recently.duno why.hahah even from my place to the train station which is quite near and i used to walk there.but now i prefer to take a cab.shit -_____- havent been revision recently.even if i did,its only abit.ive got an english presentation on tues and i still haven prepare it.i dont even have the script yet.damn.haven iron my clothes too.gotta get everything done by tomorrow night.

had a chat with PRETTY GIRL,debbie ho last night.haha.talk about lots and lots of stuff and she says shes coming over to kl at the beginning of dec.haha.shes coming with yan chang.haha.they are staying at tegans place which is very far from my place.and i just realised that tegans studying in kl too.haha.theres so many people studying in kl and i never even realise so.lame.

i really feel like going down to sg now.ahha dont ask why.i duno too.just feel like going.haha hope my mum will ask me to go down when they are going over there.

nat.cheer up =) being emo isnt good.you arent that week dear.stay strong.dont be so pressimistic and everything will be alright.its normal if friends dint ask you to go out.maybe they really forgot.they might be some other reasons which we might not know.its very normal.dont take minor matters like that as if its very serious.being sad will just make your day dull and meaningless.everything happens for a reason.so why dont you take things the way it is?maybe life will be easier for you =) cheer up.hols are mend for relaxing not for crying.when are you coming to KL??haha

went out with johnson yesterday.its was quite fun.had to go into aquaria with them.and igot a cheaper price coz im a student.haha.i pai only 20 but they paid 28 each.after that we went to taman paramount to meet pui li.a friend of his.his ex-crush too.hahah but she was nice as she offered to send us to sunway phase 2.and we walked around and spent 13 bucks on a plate of stupid rice.with curry.yucks.after that she too decided to send u to petaling street as johnson wanted to go there and get a pair of cheap shoes.but we decided not to let her drive us there coz its really far from subang and theres a very high chance of her getting lost.haha her driving skills -_- so in the end she drove us to the train station and we took a train there.

its good to be seeing old friends and i sure miss him alot.as friends la.harry will be coming soon i hope.his words cant always be trusted.haha

jessey called me up last night and we hate a chat for like over an hour.haha.she said shes afraid of failing her test and so on.jia you girl.dont give up =) you chose this path so its up to you to finish the unpaved road.so start paving the road for you own future.take care.

i wamt the new versace perfume for men.its so nice.but im so broke now.should i do it the evil way?use my card to satisfy myself and get skinned later??hahah or should i save money and get it myself???

lifes more than just doing this or that to show or prove to other people youre good.its about being yourself and enjoying every single bit of it.