i think its time for me to forget the past and move on.but things are easier said than done. :(

i need inspirations.IDEAS.

im writing an esaay TOWARDS AN INDEPENDENT JUDICIARY IN MALAYSIA due 30 nov.anyone has any good idea??

well its my 200th post for this blog.

life was a roller coaster for the past 2 weeks and now im trying real hard to pick up the pieces and glue them together.at times i felt scared and lonely walking down this path that i have no idea where it leads to. whenever i come to a junction,i dont know which to choose.i wished there was someone who could walk with me and guide me along the way.i believe in everything we do or choose every now and then will affect our future.and im really trying my best to choose the correct path so that i will not regret.

people always say that im very lucky and happy all the time because i always smile and laugh in front of them.but do they actually understand me??the real me underneath the happy mask?smiling and laughing doesnt mean that im happy all the time.ironic i know.but it is the way i am.why should we show a sour face or shout at people who dont even have anything to do with our anger and emotions?some say we are still young and why should we be thinking so much.care for everything.look at the big picture.the world for example.its in such a mess and we will hardly be able to clean it up.why is it in this state at the first place.look at us.the people.we are the ones that caused such mess.many people are just too selfish.they think that what they do or say is right.and they dont even care about other people.they simply just ignore it.if you tell them that it is wrong to be selfish,they would say IS IT??SO WHAT??YOU GO BE THE HERO LA...CARE FOR SO MUCH FOR WHAT?? this is how hatred and anger is formed.people dont care about other peoples feelings.if everyone is willing to step back and rethink about everything they just said or did.care for other people.think for them.i believe the world will be a better place.

look at malaysia.our own country.many tourists always say MALAYSIA IS GOOD.I LIKE IT.ITS SO PEACEFUL.SO MANY DIFFERENT RACES BUT STILL LIVING TOGETHER.i just smile and say yea yea but inside i am actually laughing my ass off.yes i like malaysia.its nice.but everyone living in harmony??hahahhahahah thats funny.put a gun on the road and see what will happen.a chinese or a malay will pick up the gun and shoot the other race.8 out of 10 people in malaysia are racist.trust me.i made a survey.dont believe??i give you 2 examples. 1st.look at the graffiti by the road.most of them have either CINA BABI.SOHAI MALAY. 2nd. play an online game.esp DOTA.speak malay and tell them youre a malay.at least 1 out of the remaining 9 will say FUCK NOOB MALAY.STUPID MALAY. isnt it racism? :) sooner or later,if nothing is done.another incident similiar to the may thirteen incident will happen again and this time it will be worse than the previous.look at the military power in malaysia.most of them are malays.im not saying its bad.but if such incident happens,what will happen to the chinese?run?throw notes and coins at them?the government should help stop racism.take action.im trying my best to do my part.ive scolded lots of my friends who are racists.so its time the government do something instead of arguing about politics.finding out other ministers bad stuff.sex scandal.backstab one another.wake up and stop acting like a 3 years old kid.

i cant seem to be able to find any word that could describe how i feel right know.i dont know how highly you guys have expected of me.but what i know is that it is beyond my capability.ive tried so hard.especially in math.its not like im the only one who failed that sub.its like more than half of the class failed too.are Bs not good enough?must i get all As?im not a study machine.i thought you guys would at least say something nice.but instead...sigh.im tired of everything.have you guys thought of how i felt?

all of a sudden everything just seem to be coming my way.i dont even know what am i doing everyday.everything just seem so blur.

i wish there was really someone who i could talk to or turn to right know. :(

i never felt so nervous yet excited at the same time.results are coming out tomorrow.lol

sometimes letting go is the best solution.

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results results results areeeee coommiinnggg ouuutt...lol

lets say today isnt my day.it all started with banging my head on the bed when i got up this morning.scolded by my lecturer for a small reason.sprained my ankle during futsal and left my flip flops at the futsal court.talk about luck.anyway im looking forward to tomorrow.im sure after every storm theres a rainbow.lol

should i take french this sem??

kuiyin cheer up ok? :)

charlene,i will try my best to get back to kuching during cny.hahah i havent played sparklers for a long long time.hahahha

i took airasia yesterday and when i got off the plane.this girl suddenly approach me and said.hey thats a nice book youre reading.i read it already.i was reading half a yellow sun by chimamanda ngozi adiche.the girl was from nigeria and that was where the book was from too and she was very happy with the fact that it was available in malaysia and someone was reading it.haha

shes studying i n kl and she went to kuching for holiday and you know what she said??kolo mee is very very nice.hahahahhahaha

school started on monday but for me it starts today.hahah i skipped 3 classes because i was still in kuching having my kolo mee. XD

i just got back from bing! and while i was there,i kinda wish it was 2 years ago.back then we used to patronise the place almost every weekend.choc brownies and oreo cheese.everyone was so happy and were like crazy lunatics.walking here and there.crapping about this and that.but now its so different.even if we are able to gather together.it would still be fine and cool but i mean the feeling is not there anymore.i mean now that everyones has chosen their very own path and are busy pursuing their dreams.our ideas and thoughts would never be the same.everyone has their own thinking.

i really miss everyone.back then i really took it for granted.we played and we fought.those were the days.but this is the price we have to pay to pursue our very own dreams.

yesterday is history.today is a gift.tomorrow is a mystery.

the pics are all in facebook.im too lazy to upload the same stuff twice.

i dont want to go back to kl.i dont want to go back to the crazy and stressful life.i want KOLO MEE.my kolo mee therapy will officially end tomorrow.

FYI,ive gained some weight.prolly around 6 or 7 kg.hahahah

some shots of my friends during the last day of their secondary school life in my ex school.haha i really miss secondary school life.which i didnt graduate.haha because i chickened out.hahhaha anyway back then we were like carefree kids.all we stressed about was who are we playing against for our futsal and football.

anyway kuiyin wanted me to upload them.so heres some. :)











guang took this pic and it seems that hes not quite comfortable with the fact that im took a picture with his girl.hahaha