well its my 200th post for this blog.

life was a roller coaster for the past 2 weeks and now im trying real hard to pick up the pieces and glue them together.at times i felt scared and lonely walking down this path that i have no idea where it leads to. whenever i come to a junction,i dont know which to choose.i wished there was someone who could walk with me and guide me along the way.i believe in everything we do or choose every now and then will affect our future.and im really trying my best to choose the correct path so that i will not regret.

people always say that im very lucky and happy all the time because i always smile and laugh in front of them.but do they actually understand me??the real me underneath the happy mask?smiling and laughing doesnt mean that im happy all the time.ironic i know.but it is the way i am.why should we show a sour face or shout at people who dont even have anything to do with our anger and emotions?some say we are still young and why should we be thinking so much.care for everything.look at the big picture.the world for example.its in such a mess and we will hardly be able to clean it up.why is it in this state at the first place.look at us.the people.we are the ones that caused such mess.many people are just too selfish.they think that what they do or say is right.and they dont even care about other people.they simply just ignore it.if you tell them that it is wrong to be selfish,they would say IS IT??SO WHAT??YOU GO BE THE HERO LA...CARE FOR SO MUCH FOR WHAT?? this is how hatred and anger is formed.people dont care about other peoples feelings.if everyone is willing to step back and rethink about everything they just said or did.care for other people.think for them.i believe the world will be a better place.

look at malaysia.our own country.many tourists always say MALAYSIA IS GOOD.I LIKE IT.ITS SO PEACEFUL.SO MANY DIFFERENT RACES BUT STILL LIVING TOGETHER.i just smile and say yea yea but inside i am actually laughing my ass off.yes i like malaysia.its nice.but everyone living in harmony??hahahhahahah thats funny.put a gun on the road and see what will happen.a chinese or a malay will pick up the gun and shoot the other race.8 out of 10 people in malaysia are racist.trust me.i made a survey.dont believe??i give you 2 examples. 1st.look at the graffiti by the road.most of them have either CINA BABI.SOHAI MALAY. 2nd. play an online game.esp DOTA.speak malay and tell them youre a malay.at least 1 out of the remaining 9 will say FUCK NOOB MALAY.STUPID MALAY. isnt it racism? :) sooner or later,if nothing is done.another incident similiar to the may thirteen incident will happen again and this time it will be worse than the previous.look at the military power in malaysia.most of them are malays.im not saying its bad.but if such incident happens,what will happen to the chinese?run?throw notes and coins at them?the government should help stop racism.take action.im trying my best to do my part.ive scolded lots of my friends who are racists.so its time the government do something instead of arguing about politics.finding out other ministers bad stuff.sex scandal.backstab one another.wake up and stop acting like a 3 years old kid.