it is not how i look outside but what i am beneath it that defines me.

girl.i really duno what to say anymore.the fact that you took me for granted really made me speechless.yes frankly speaking,i maybe a person whose temper will not last long,but this isnt the way to treat a friend.6 years of friendship.and all i get is this?the fact that i treated you like my little sister.i SWEAR to god that i treated you the best among my friends.believe it or not.ask anyone you like.whatever u wanted i bought you.everything i thought of you first.

yes i may not be your boyfriend.but it doesnt mean that you can just throw your friend around.your friends are humans too.i have feelings you know.im deeply disappointed by what you did yesterday and today.

last night,maybe i acted to harsh.i apologise.but what about today?we went to the place because you said it was nearer to your place.fine with me.i give in.i rushed from my office to the place.and its freaking far you know.you want to pay for my petrol?what when i went over?where were you?you came for less than 10 mins and you left just like that.fine.i try to control my temper.you said we meet up tonight because xy is back.10 pm fine.when i went over there?all i see is harry xy and his bro.WHERE ARE YOU?

i dont know if you read my blog or not.but let me remind you here.i am too a human like you and i have feelings too my dear.you took me for granted when you dont need me and when you needed me?youre softer than the meadows.what is all this about?

totally disappointed.honestly my dear.i really dont want to lose you as a close friend.but i dont think i have any choice do i?

i thought i thought it would be a great holiday when i get back to kuching.i thought there would be lots of fun.i thought i will be so busy with food sessions.but i was somehow wrong this time.

F R I E N D S ?? or just merely a tag along doll ??

or maybe i was simply too selfish.wanting everyone to be with me all the time.wanting to be entertained all the time?im prolly still naive as before.i dont know.






to miss debbie
i look forward to that moment...hahah you dont need me to remind you right?hahhha

im in front of my laptop but im using my p1i to blog and surf the net.can you picture how bored i am now?someone puhlease save me from this void.. Help

since yesterday after setting my foot on the my kolo mee paradise that i was longing for months back.i became emotionally unstable.i duno why and im still trying to find the answer.its not that im not satisfied about my life,i mean i have all the things that i want.i indulge in almost everything i liked except for an ipod.but somehow i suddenly felt that everythings so pointless.living 19 years on this planet.what have i done?what have i contributed to the public?i mean out there in this world.some people around my age or polly younger are already earning money themselves or contributing all they have to the society,to make the world a better place.but here i am contributing nothing.am i looking at a picture thats too big to me?i really wished i was capable of making the world a better place.but how?i really have no idea where to start from.all of a sudden i felt so alone in this big wide world. striving to survive.

all the friends around me seem to be forever confident with their lives and what they do or aim for.but im always blurred about my future.at times i think i will succeed but there are also times that it is as it being swallowed up by the boogey monster.nowhere to be seen.i salute my friends that are so forever calm and cool.they always have plans for their paths ahead.if there is a remedy for it,i will do what every it takes to have it.

i could use some company for the time being.but who?you he she him her they them it?where are my strength that i used to have?i know im very weak mentally but i was never this weak before.what has happened to me??too much kolo mee??

thank you girl :)

2 more papers and i will be a free man for two weeks.i miss kuching and everything nice...hahah when i go back...the list of people i wanna meet up with is like so damn long...lol and i only have 2 weeks.oh wells.lets not whine.we should appreciate things that are given to us...KOLO MEE....

debbie i will call u when i go back...hahahah dont worry...

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When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

i seriously need some sleeping pills to help me sleep...im knackered but somehow i cant sleep...

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