congratulations to me. i finally got into the 2nd year. (: and i promise i will study very hard and get good results. (: jia youuuu.

happy 10 months darling. <3 (: hugs

happy 21st birthday darling. (:
youre old.

hope you have a nice celebration in the plane. (: we shall celebrate when you come back here okay? hugs. take care and i love you hun. <3

im flying to melbourne tomorrow morning. and im supposed to be happy. but somehow right now im filled with both sadness and happiness. why is it always my fault and me to blame?? no matter how hard i try to explain its still my fault? maybe i shouldnt have chosen to further my studies in melbourne. should have just stay in the shop everyday instead. ):

stop comparing me with other people. everyone is unique. what they have i might not have, but what i have they might not have. i never compare you with other people. i guess i will never be good enough for you. no matter how hard i try.

you keep saying this course is hard because everyone around you told you its hard. but i told you to me its easy. why would you choose to listen to your friends instead of me ?? do they really know more about the course than i do? do they even know what the course is? just because the word aerospace sounds alien to you doesnt mean that it would be a very hard course. for once just believe in me will you? thank you.

3 years ago, when i said i wanted to study mechatronics, you said im crazy. its a very hard course and that i wont do well. but youre wrong. i did well. please stop looking down at me and give me support. i really appreciate that.

9 months of awesome <3

(:

all i asked from you is to love me more. nothing else

Is there anyone out there that is willing to hear my mind? Why no one freaking understands how i feel and why no one freaking believes in me??? ):

有时候可能是我想太多。。。

我真的不知道该怎么办。。。

多希望有人可以听我所想要说的话，
多希望有人可以给我指导， 告诉我该怎么办才好。。。

我真的真的不知道。。。

我很烦。我很烦。我很烦。

happy new year hon. (: love you always. hugs

happy new year to everyone. (:

i realised my blog is rather dead. :(

i had a bad bad dream. and i cant sleep :(

how come everything i do everything i wanted to do, everyone goes against it. no matter what everyone will be splashing cold water. why? should i really be that presistent? or just listen to them? when you pioneer the road not taken, will it be a more rewarding or that following the footsteps of others would be the best seeked solution. im sick of it.

its hard to be walking down the darkest part of the road alone. not knowing whats behind you and whats in front of you. whats gonna come and whats gonna happen. no one to aide you and no one to advice you.

lifes been rather unkind to me lately and i dont know why.things just dont go the way its expected. people disappointing you. things turned out to be crappy. or maybe i should be thankful that im still alive every second and i shouldnt be whining because i can still enjoy good food.

the more you expect, the higher the chances of getting disappointed. maybe its best to just expect from myself and not from others.